At times where I get a little too tired(again) in life.. I remind myself of the great friends I have in life and things would feel better for that moment. Great company makes life feel a lot better.. but by great company I meant people that you can turn to when you need a listening ear. Not the ones that just hang around when you are having the time of your life.
I'm not the kind that keeps pulling to keep a friendship going. Well I use to be one... but I figured what's the use of it because people that want to leave will leave anyway. So now I'm the kind that if you wouldn't bother to keep the friendship going I probably wouldn't as well. Unless you are someone really important or someone that has played an important part in my life.. which is really rare nowadays.
There are many people that I miss a lot though... See what I mean by I self-contradict a lot? I wouldn't try holding people back when they choose to leave but I miss them when there are not here. It's not a lot, probably just a handful. This handful that I've spend the best time of my life with.
Occasionally I would remember the times I use to spend with them back in Secondary School and stare into space thinking about the times we laugh about. They were my main source of laughter at that point of time because they made the dullest and hardest days seem so much better than they actually were. I could be panicking about not finishing my homework and they could still make me laugh with just one sentence. We have made so many skits together, making everyone in class impressed and wanting more because it was too funny. Sometimes when I go through my folders I still see the scripts that we've planned out together.
Uhwell.. I guess I need to stop here today. Not sure if I'll be able to wake up on time if I'm still not going to sleep. I'll need to be at my friend's house by 12 and hopefully by then he would be awake... because even though he said that it would be okay if he isn't since his mom will be there to open the door for me.. I just feel that it will be awkward.. hehe.
Do you believe that once you've fallen to the lowest part of life, everything will just get better from now on?
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